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IF: God Moved

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It’s hard to believe I haven’t written about IF here before. I mean, really rather shocking. I chalk it up to the fact that I haven’t written much of anything here over the past year. Because if you’ve spent more than a little time with me over the last year, I’ve more than likely word-vomited on you about just how amazing IF has been for me.

Just in case I haven’t waxed poetic to you yet, and you don’t know a thing about what IF is, here’s the cliff notes version of it. IF began three years ago when God set the wheels in motion through Jennie Allen in Austin with their first conference in February of 2014. To say there was a groundswell following that conference is an understatement. IF exists to gather, equip and unleash women to live out their calling by creating tools and resources for the local church and the women they serve; a generation of women who desire to change their local context for the glory of God and the good of others. To underline the focus on the local church, IF keeps their February in-person attendance small, and then encourages women to host IF:Local gatherings in their local context to participate in the conference via Live Stream. (ahhh the power of technology)

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IF:North Oak Cliff 2015

IF:Local is how I first experienced IF, when I decided to host a gathering in my home last February. To be honest, I wasn’t sure what to expect. But I knew they had wonderful speakers and I love gathering women together in my home, so I figured what could there be to lose? And let me tell you , it was more than I ever could have dreamed of, and has continued to be. God moved in such a powerful, tangible way and that weekend was just the beginning of what He would do through the last year.

After a weekend of getting to know each other and being vulnerable, the women gathered in my living room were asked to write on a stone what they felt God was calling them to beyond the weekend together. And those 20 minutes were the minutes that would rock my world, and solidify my faith. Those 20 minutes were the moments where any doubt I ever had about God was washed away. As we shared our calling, we also shared our fears and our prayer needs. We prayed for patience for a dear girl who had been dealing with infertility for 2 years, we prayed for movement in a relationship that seemed to need a nudge forward, we prayed for knowledge and confidence for a student readying for board exams, and we prayed for relationships to be built for a shy, introverted girl who longed for deep relationships with women in her community. We prayed for so many things, and God listened. My friend found out she was pregnant within two months of our gathering, and gave birth to a healthy baby girl in December. And that relationship that needed a nudge? Not only were they engaged shortly thereafter, they were married in December. That student? She passed her board exams with flying colors on her first try. And that girl who longed for friendships? That girl was me. And oh the fruit that prayer has yielded.

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IF:Table at Christine’s Home

Even that very weekend a brave soul showed up to my house not knowing anyone, and she has blessed me and discipled me through her steadfast faith and friendship this year. Christine lived in the area and we instantly clicked. And this year I watched her work through some tough decisions and, because of her faith and true abiding belief in the Father, she and her precious family are in Nashville now. And I was so sad, thinking I was back to longing for relationships. But then I stepped out on a limb and went to the IF:Local Leaders Gathering in Orlando in September, and from just that weekend, I have two new amazing friends, Jennifer and Laura…Laura who lives just minutes from me but we had to travel to Orlando to meet. And what amazing women they are. I grew closer to women who I had met through a church small group and together we got deeper with God and prayed Anything prayers. And the circle continues to grow. We’ve found an amazing church in our neighborhood and I’ve already met some amazing ladies there who I know will continue to bless my life and grow my faith.

I could go on and on about God’s provision and movement over the past year. But I say all of this to bring me here, IF:Gathering is once again upon us. And if I can push you to do anything at all through this tiny little space on the web, it’s to find a group of women who you can walk with spiritually and be vulnerable with and do live in the trenches with. A place where you can wrestle with your faith and work through it together. And I really believe IF can be that jumping off place for you. If you live in the Dallas area (or want to travel in!), I am hosting again this year, no…co-hosting with my IF friend Laura (God is GOOD!), and I would love for you to join us! We will be gathering February 5th & 6th. All of the details can be found here on our website page, as well as our Facebook event page. And if you don’t live in Dallas, rest easy! There are over 1500 Locals happening all over the world. Visit ifgathering.com/local to find one near you. And if by some chance there isn’t one near you, you can host one too! Or stream it live throughout the weekend right wherever you are.

I am so expectant and excited and filled with the joy of the Lord at the thought of this year’s IF:Gathering. I pray God will place on your heart the place you are meant to be and that you will come with an open heart and mind and eyes ready to see God move. My life was truly changed last February and I know there is more in store this year. So tell me, will we see you in February?

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My Oklahoma-Shaped Heart

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I’ve tried to start this post some 10 or 15 times but never really know what to say. I am heartbroken by the tragedy the struck Moore, Oklahoma in the form of a monstrous tornado yesterday afternoon, just one day after another significant tornado in Shawnee, Oklahoma…and less than a week after the tornadoes that ripped through Granbury, Cleburne and other parts of North Texas.  I can’t remember a tornado season like this in these parts.

After spending four of my best years of life in Oklahoma for college, the state, and particularly the Norman area (just south of Moore) will forever hold a special place in my heart. It’s where I learned to live on my own, and to loosen up and enjoy myself more, and where I made the best friends I will EVER have…my forever friends. And because of that, I still have a lot of ties to the area. I guess what made yesterday’s tornado seem even bigger to me was realizing just how many people I love and hold dear were directly the path of that tornado’s destruction. My youngest sister, Caroline, is in school at the OU Health Sciences Center in OKC and she lives in Norman, her boyfriend’s parents and grandmother live in Moore, one of best friends, Ashley, lives on the Norman/Moore borderline…and that’s just to name a few of the many.

I was texting Caroline like a crazy, overprotective mother yesterday making sure she was safe and out of harm’s way. I was praying over Ashley’s storm cellar doors on Facebook….I was totally consumed by the enormity of this thing.  The photos of the devastation are almost mind-numbing. It doesn’t really seem possible. And then the children. Oh the children, Lord. I got home and just sort of dissolved into tears. I couldn’t help it.

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But just like good ol Toby Keith said, Moore (and really Oklahoma as a whole) is “strong and will persevere.” There is work to be done and rebuilding to start. What has happened cannot be changed. We can only learn from it and get on with it. We now have a duty to lift this community up in prayer, and to get down and dirty helping them rebuild and repair however we can. Here are a few ways you can help:

  • American Red Cross: Make a $10 donation by texting REDCROSS to 90999,  donate online or over the phone at 1-800-RED-CROSS
  • Salvation Army: Make a $10 donation by texting STORM to 80888, donate online or over the phone at 1-800-SAL-ARMY.
  • Oklahoma Baptist Disaster Relief Volunteers: Make a donation online .
  • Regional Food Bank of Oklahoma: Text FOOD to 32333 or donate online.

I know there are many more and I absolutely encourage you to share resources if you have them! I know sometimes it’s hard to know how to help when something like this happens. Take it from me, with my non-profit experience, if you have any money to give I PROMISE that is the best thing right now. That way they can get the items they most need, and the people who are trained in recovery and cleanup can do the work they are made to do.

My heart is with you, Oklahoma!

Power Hour

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5 a.m.: the power hour. I’ve spent a good long while totally convinced that there was no way I could ever be a morning workout person. “It’s too early and I need lots of sleep to be productive during the day,” or “I don’t have the energy to get my best possible workout that early…I do better in the evenings,” and even “I won’t have enough time to get ready and to work on time if I work out in the morning.” I’d also convinced myself that I couldn’t physically handle back to back intense workouts, “My body needs ‘rest days’ between intense days…” Believe me, I was NOT, no way, no how ever going to be a morning workout person. It was settled.

But then, after months of paying for Camp Gladiator and only making it to camp twice a week, at best, or none at all at worst, and subsequently seeing no results, my friend Sarah and I decided our system just wasn’t working. Something had to change if we wanted to reach our weight loss and fitness goals.

And so we made a plan to do what I never thought was possible for me–we were going to Tuesday’s 5:30 a.m. camp. I had my doubts that we would actually make it. But then a funny thing happened. We made it to camp. And not only did we make it to camp, we felt great having gone and were more energetic throughout the morning, more productive at work and actually excited to work out. Somewhere between 5:30 and 6:30 a.m, something changed: my perspective.

Now, not only can I do it, I want to do it! I even caught myself saying to Sarah this morning, “Man we should’ve started Monday so we could make it all five days this week!” WHAT?! Crazy right? In just a one hour on a random Tuesday morning, my workout became something I no longer dread all day long before coming up with a reason I can’t make it, or felt guilty about having to miss because of a meeting or event in the evening. My workout is part of my morning routine. It’s just one more step I take before hopping in the shower and getting ready for work.

Plus, it’s positively affecting the rest of my day as well. I eat better the rest of the day because I don’t want to blow everything I got up early to do. Before, I would eat junk all day long with the thought that I would just work it off at camp that night. Again, it’s just a little shift in thinking that has big impact! I get far more done in the morning when I get to work, and when I get home in the evening, I can jump right into whatever I need to get done. It’s not 7 pm before I can start on something because I had to go workout in the evening. The evenings are mine and I’ve been making the most of them!

Now, all of this said, we are only three days into our new routine, but I truly believe there is no turning back. Sarah and I have already confirmed we will be out there again tomorrow morning (again, Friday workouts? A few days ago those just wouldn’t ever have happened.) I must confess I am very sore today and I’m more tired than I have been thus far BUT this was to be expected and it’s just the hump I have to get over while my body adjusts to the new schedule. And now I have the determination to push myself past this hump!

So, what have you dubbed “impossible” in your own life? Maybe it’s time you give it another try. Challenge the voice that tells you you can’t. Because maybe you can. And even if you can’t, you can’t just yet. Start working at it, believe that you can, and I bet pretty soon you’ll have achieved “the impossible.”  See you in the morning?!

 

photo credit: Family and MWR Programs

Lent

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Today is Ash Wednesday and marks the start of the Christian Lenten season. While I am not Catholic, I think Lent is an important time in our Christian walk as it is a dedicated time for us to prepare ourselves for Easter (I wrote on this last year) and really dwell of the Lord. Part of this preparation typically involves some sort of fasting, or giving something up for the 40 days leading up to Easter. I’ve decided this year I am going to, once again, give up alcohol for Lent and make a concerted effort to cut out fast food and all the junk food I’ve been eating of late (the second will take more preparation and planning than I’m accustomed to when it comes to food. So it’ll certainly be a challenge).

But I don’t want to just give something up, I want to give something back. My mom is really the one who brought this approach to my attention and I really love it. So I am planning to write a note, or a card, or even an email, to someone every day for the next 40 days to just tell them I love them, or am proud of them, or encouraged by them. I think we have really become so isolated from each other in many ways because of technology but also because we are just constantly pushing to reach the next milestone or goal and we don’t often take the time to celebrate what has been accomplished. I want to offer encouragement and support, in God’s name, this Lenten season.

So my question for you is are you giving anything up this year? Is there a particular reason you’ve chosen this to give up? And would you consider adding to your Lent commitment something to give back? It doesn’t have to be anything huge…but just something to take things beyond just yourself. Afterall, what better way to improve yourself than by helping to build up others around you?  I’d love to hear your thoughts!

photo by Fadi Habib.

Recommit

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Welcome to February. Yes, we are a whole month into 2013 and it’s not slowing down anytime soon. If I’m being honest, I don’t know what happened but January became a throw away month for me in a lot of ways. Don’t get me wrong, there are a lot of wonderful things that happened and that I accomplished this month, especially with regard to getting the ball rolling on wedding planning. And I got some good work done with my job, but I could’ve done more I think.

But more than that, I really sort of lost myself and my personal drive in January. I just was trying to get through everything and check things off my list. I didn’t take any time before the start of the year to think about what I want to accomplish in my personal life in 2013, and what steps I want to take to further advance my career. I just kept my head down and plugging along. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but there is SO MUCH I want to accomplish, and I simply not satisfied treading water, not going anywhere, not bettering myself and my mind and my family and my community. And if I never stop to think about where I’m going, I’ll never get there.

So today I’m declaring a restart…no, a regrouping, recommitment…to my personal growth in 2013. This weekend I am setting aside time to sit down and make some purposeful, measurable goals for myself. I’m going to analyze my motivations, my aspirations, my desires and I’m going to make a plan to get where I want to be. I refuse to live casually anymore. Each day we are given is a gift and if we don’t do all we can to make the most of the time given here, we have not done enough.

What about you? Do you have purpose and direction for the year ahead? If so, use this start of the month to look at what you’ve accomplished so far and to revisit your next action items. If you’re more like me and are a little slower out of the gates, it’s not too late to make a plan and start accomplishing your goals. We can do this together! Who says your Year of You can’t start today? Mine does…

 

Girls

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“I’m a lady, you’re a lady, you’re a lady. We’re the ladies!”

So I’m way behind jumping on the GIRLS bandwagon, but consider me fully on board now. Yesterday I got to spend the day with some of my favorite ladies for a full on Season 1 GIRLS marathon. It’s been said many places many times, but this is totally the Sex And The City for our generation. Don’t get me wrong, I love me some SATC, but so much of it was so unrealistic for girls my age–and really girls most ages! As we all sat there we laughed about how many similar situations and relationships and friendships and financial straits we’d all been in. And it was so SATC when the “Oh you are so [Hanna, Shoshanna, Jessa, Marnie ]” started. You just can’t help but to relate to the characters.

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Not to mention it’s totally crass but honest and makes for the perfect “Girls Day In” sipping (or gulping) mimosas. The new season starts this coming Sunday night…so I either need to order HBO or find someone who has it so I can keep up!  Do you love the show? Have you seen it?

Here’s the trailer for Season 2:

In Memory of…

As I sat this morning trying to get ready for work with the morning news on, it became a battle between me and my eyeliner, which was doing its best to run off my face before I even finished the first application. Every time I read a story, or watch a news segment, or see a picture, I end up in a puddle of tears. I’ve tried to figure out the best way to talk about what happened Friday in Newtown, CT at Sandy Hook Elementary School. Should I give my thoughts on gun control, or mental health care in this country, or perhaps on the way media cover these tragic events, or recap the President’s moving words to a gathered crowd last night. None of it seems quite right. So I think the best thing I can do is just to remember those lost and state what I know to be true.

I know that we live in a world where evil is present, but there is also good abounding around us. And there is good because of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, whose birth we are readying ourselves to celebrate in a few short days. I know that 27 wonderful souls were lost Friday, but that they are resting safe in the Father’s arms today. I know there were incredible acts of bravery and valor that took place throughout Sandy Hook Elementary that morning. I know that God has plans to see us prosper and have hope and a future and in that truth, I know that none of this tragedy comes from Him. I know that no matter how many explanations we come up with, or diagnoses we can pin on the killer, or laws we can sign into action we will never truly be able to make sense of what has happened in our country, in Newtown, Friday morning.

I know that the very best way we can honor those who we have lost, is to remember their names, each and every one of them, and to take every opportunity to hear their stories. I’ve been overwhelmed listening to the family members speak about their children, and grandmothers, and teachers they’ve lost and how they so desperately want the world to know what wonderful humans each one was. Let’s honor their memory by listening and loving and never forgetting those lost. And let’s vow to do everything we can to make sure this doesn’t happen again.

With that, I leave you with the names of those lost. Read them and remember them.

Charlotte Bacon

Daniel Barden

Rachel D’Avino

Olivia Engel

Josephine Gay

Ana Marquez-Greene

Dylan Hockley

Dawn Hochsprung

Madeleine Hsu

Catherine Hubbard

Chase Kowalski

Nancy Lanza

Jesse Lewis

James Mattoli

Grace McDonnell

Anne Marie Murphy

Emilie Parker

Jack Pinto

Noah Pozner

Caroline Previdi

Jessica Rekos

Avielle Richman

Lauren Rousseau

Mary Sherlach

Victoria Soto

Benjamin Wheeler

Allison Wyatt

 

photo by Mike Brand 

Only For Today

The Happiness Project 2012 Desktop Calendar

Have you read, or heard of, The Happiness Project by Gretchen Ruben? I read it a year or two ago and thought it had some good takeaways, but by no means have I done any sort of large-scale implementation in my life or anything.  But last Christmas I did receive the coordinating 2012 desktop calendar and I have to say, I didn’t expect much–aren’t those things full of fairly useless crap most of the time?- but I’ve really been pleased with how many good little nuggets there have been over the course of the last year.  I say all of that because today’s post is 100% thanks to the little calendar on my desk. It’s such a good reminder that we have to take life one day at a time, and that it is important to make time for the things that feed our soul.  So forgive me for regurgitating information you can get elsewhere, but I thought this would be a great way to start the week with all the holiday madness that has taken hold of the country.  Pope John XXIII wrote a daily decalogue for himself (psst…a decalogue is a basic set of rules carrying binding authority and also another word for the Ten Comandments…so these were his personal commandments to follow daily) and it really is such an interesting way to approach the day. Without further ado, from my calendar:

Pope John XXIII’s Daily Decalogue

Pope John XXIII (pope 1958-1963), know as “The Good Pope” wrote his Daily Decalogue:

  1. Only for today, I will seek to live the livelong day positively without wishing to solve the problems of my life all at once.
  2. Only for today, I will take the greatest care of my appearance: I will dress modestly; I will not raise my voice; I will be courteous in my behaviour; I will not criticize anyone; I will not claim to improve or to discipline anyone except myself.
  3. Only for today, I will be happy in the certainty that I was created to be happy, not only in the other world but also in this one.
  4. Only for today, I will adapt to circumstances, without requiring all circumstances to be adapted to my own wishes.
  5. Only for today, I will devote 10 minutes of my time to some good reading, remembering that just as food is necessary to the life of the body, so good reading is necessary to the life of the soul.

I think number five is my personal favorite.  What things are you striving to do, to be, to remember today? Do you have personal commandments that help keep your day, week, life on course and in appropriate perspective? I’ve never personally written out a decalogue for myself, but I like the idea of this.  Perhaps I will have to work on one for 2013! Who wants to join me?

Healing Sleep

There really is something so healing about sleep, isn’t there?  I’ve been sick the past few days (thus the lack of blog posts–sorry!) and usually, when I’m sick, I try to power through and still get everything done, even if that means staying up late and getting up early, all while it’s incredibly apparent my body is begging for rest.  For whatever reason, when this ickiness started settling in on Friday, I actually listened (with some urging by Bear). I stayed in, popped in a movie and dozed in and out of sleep most of the evening before getting in bed some time around 10. Sunday I was in bed and asleep by 9pm…Monday by 9:30.  And while I’m still not completely over all of this, I do have the energy to get through the work day and stay focused as opposed to just getting through each day in a fog like I normally do when I’m sick.

And all this sleep got me to thinking…Sometimes I think we are so quick to champion anyone who stays up ’till all hours of the night, or early morning, as truly dedicated to their work and someone who is more ambitious than all of us slugs who are already in bed sleeping. And maybe it’s true. Maybe their career ambition is on another level than mine is, but I would also say, at what cost? I am really trying to change the way I think and behave and start truly putting my health and wellness first. I think taking care of myself, getting enough sleep, and eating right and exercising, will help me be far more successful in the long run than putting in another hour or two in the middle of the night.  Sleep restores our body and our minds. How can we put forth our best, most creative work, when our minds are not operating at full capacity?

Then again, maybe that’s just the cold talking and I’ve had too much time to dream of sleep…

 

photo by Jay Ryness 

30 Day Challenge

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I seem to go through a cycle of laziness and weight gain, followed by super intense workout regimen and weight-loss + toning up, only to fall back into laziness and weight gain. I am also a master of creating challenges for myself, but not always following through, or maintaining once I’ve finished.  I’m sure I’m not alone in this.  SO, one of my Twitter acquaintances, who no doubt remembers various tweets related to said cycle, reached out to me to join a 30 Day Challenge she is leading.  I’m a sucker for a challenge.  So I signed up.  We officially start today, but this weekend we filled out questionnaires about our workout and eating habits, took measurements, set our workout schedule for the week and hardest (i.e. WORST) of all, took before pictures and shared them with our private accountability group.  The group is already getting me excited with their sharing and encouraging words.  It’s a really honest group. I feel like we can put it all out there and we’ll help each other reach our goals.

Do you know how hard it is to take a good, honest look at your flabby, fatty body?!  And I am not trying to be a big self-hater or anything.  I honestly think I am not in just horrible condition (I strongly believe you do NOT have to be a size 4 to look good!), but I also know I am not taking good care of myself and I just don’t feel good about where I am health wise.  I want to have more energy and feel healthy and strong.  I’m hoping maybe this will be the kick in the booty I need to get back on track and, hopefully, stick with it for good this time.

SO, while I am not anywhere near ready to show you my before pictures right now, I am not above using public shame to help keep me accountable.  If I don’t stick with this program for the next 30 days–I’ll put my before pictures up here for the whole world to see.  And if I do stick with it, hopefully I’ll have some after pictures that I’ll be happier to share.  …that is to be determined! But for now, I figured I would at least share my first week’s planned workout schedule so I can feel like I am making a public commitment to follow through with this.

…I think I may have lost my mind with all of this but I’m actually very excited about it. What are you doing for yourself and your health right now??

Schedule Shmedule

My calendar: proof positive that I can in fact plan ahead in some areas!

I consider myself a planner, and I think many of my friends and family, and especially Bear, would agree with that designation. But for whatever reason, I have not done a good job really planning out this space and upcoming posts.  I am constantly writing down new ideas for posts, but it seems like at least once a week (sometimes more!) I find myself once again without a post for the day, scrambling to get something of quality (and admittedly it’s occasionally very poor quality!) up for you all.  In so many areas of my life I want very clearly defined plans so I know what to expect and prepare for, but the creative realm provokes an entirely different, unorganized side of me and my planner side is starting to get annoyed!  SO, I am committing to you all that I WILL get an actual editorial calendar put together for myself so that I can bring you more high quality and, hopefully, intellectual,thought-provoking material. I refuse to be someone who contributes to the mindless drivel that permeates so much of what is thrown around these days. I want to help foster conversation and knowledge and curiosity about the things around us and I know that putting a well-thought-out plan together will help me accomplish those things.

With all of that, I would really love to hear what you like reading about most. What your interests are. What conversations you want to have.  Because I have plenty of ideas but if they aren’t interesting to you, they don’t serve much purpose in this format.  So bring it on! Tell me what’s on your mind!

That Uncomfortable Place

We’ve all been there: feeling stagnant, directionless, lacking motivation, creativity, drive, purpose…at least I think we all have. And it’s not just an emotional or mental state, there is a physical manifestation that comes with all that as well. You feel drained, fatigued, sapped. That’s where I’ve been for a little while now, and until recently I don’t think I really even realized that’s where I was. Or maybe I was just ignoring it. It’s not the most fun place to be.

Lately I’ve felt like I’m standing still watching this flurry of life and activity swirl around me, but have been unsure how to unstick myself from where I am and jump back in. I see so many people my age, and even younger, who seem to be charging ahead, taking no prisoners and making big things happen for themselves. It’s awesome. And yet, I seem to be in the same place I’ve been for years now. How do I break out of this cycle of sameness, feeling lost like I’m missing something bigger, and chart a new course for myself?

I don’t know what the answer is, so all I can do is start trying things and see what works. Who knows, maybe they won’t get me any closer to the answers I’m looking for, but maybe, just maybe, they will. It can’t hurt to try. It’s better than where I am. So here’s my starting line:

  1. Just Start Doing Something, Anything I think starting can be the hardest part…and sometimes that lack of any action can hold you hostage and wipe out your creative center.  Sometimes the best source for new ideas and new lines of creativity come when you’re right in the middle of something else. So I’m just going to regularly  schedule time to “do something” and get my juices flowing again.
  2. Turn Off The Technology So often I come home and turn on the TV, or fire up my laptop, and then get nothing done the rest of the night. It sucks my motivation to do anything out of me. I can’t really explain it but often I think I am helping to fuel my creativity by surfing the internet, pinning away on Pinterest, pouring over “inspiration blogs” filled with beautiful pictures but not much content and I find that I’m left feeling more hollow and down than inspired and encouraged. I’m not trying to knock those blogs and platforms–some of them are really full of truly beautiful things that, in moderation, can be very inspiring–but my soul and my intellect are craving more depth and challenge. I’m not going to find the challenge and inspiration I’m looking for by passing (many) hours in the spaces that aren’t filling my needs, so I need to turn them off more often.
  3. Make an Aspirations List Not just goals, but long-term personal aspirations. I need to spend some time doing some soul-searching to discover what it is that I truly desire and am meant to do. When I stopped dancing back in college I never really stepped back to think about where I ultimately saw myself outside of the dance world and instead just moved on to something I thought I could be somewhat successful at. I didn’t take any time to think about what really gives me fulfillment, my passions and my strengths. Once I figure out what my aspirations are, or at least a path down which I can further explore, then I can formulate a game plan.
  4. Write More Writing is my healing balm. Just putting pen to paper for this post (yes, I wrote it out on paper first, so old school. ha) already has me feeling more hopeful and focused. Why do we so often run from the things we know are best for us? I know that writing is the one thing that I can always do to make sense of what is going on in my head. It’s not good enough for me to just try to think through things–I have to hash it out on paper. It’s the only way I can really get a good grasp of my emotions and thoughts and direction. And I must do it more.
  5. Pray More Again, let me ask, Why do we so often run from the things we know are best for us? Not that I’m running from prayer, but I’m certainly not spending as much time in prayerful meditation as I should be. When I spend time with the Lord, I may not have all the answers when and how I want them, but at least I know I am connected to the one who does have them. I am hoping that all of these earthly things and accomplishments and relationships will fulfill me in a way that ultimately, only my relationship with God can. It’s so easy to get caught up in feeling like my current position in life is where I am always going to be. But I know there is more for me in this life, and that there is even more waiting for me in Heaven. Yes, I want to accomplish and be all that I am meant to be on this Earth, and make an impact on the world we live in, but I can only do that if I’m walking with God and listening to Him in this time when I feel like I’m a little lost on my path. What better way to find my true path than by going to the One who created that path I’m searching for.

So that’s where I am starting and hopefully these things will help me to propel myself out of this little rut. This too shall pass, right? Just laying all of this out and getting it off my chest has me feeling better. I’ll be back kickin’ ass and taking names, or at least on the path to figuring out where I’m supposed to be, in no time. Have you ever found yourself here? What did you do to get through it?

 

photo by  Michael McCauslin
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