There is something so comforting about being in the company of my mom and sisters. Last night I met up with my mom and sister Sara to do a little birthday shopping for my soon-to-be 21-year-old not-so-baby sister. After wearing out our already tired feet, we sat down for dinner at a little restaurant in the mall. What followed next? Scintillating conversation? Endless giggles? Updates on the latest happenings? Not so much. Believe me, we have plenty of dinners where all of the above happens, and those are some of my happiest times, but last night, we needed something more.
We were all weary from a stressful day, and weighing heavy on us was the passing of my great-uncle earlier in the day. No we didn’t have a gab fest of gossip, we sort of just rested in each other’s company. And that was exactly what I needed. I’ve gotten to a place lately where I feel just worn down with so many things. I feel like I am treading water, trying to figure out where I’m really supposed to be, what I’m supposed to be doing, and quite frankly, it’s just taken the wind out of my sails. So to sit there in a booth, listening to the small talk, and the occasional silence, I felt like we were all connected on a much deeper level. Giving each other the permission to rest and just let go, for a little while, of everything weighing on our shoulders. To not have to be “interesting” or make conversation or put on airs that everything is ah-mazing in our worlds. We could just be there and be there for each other….in whatever capacity we needed.
I truly feel so blessed to have such an amazing network of incredible support. There are so many people who surround me and wrap me up in love, when I need it, and even when I think I don’t.