Have you ever had a song, or a poem, or a quote that you just couldn’t get away from? I don’t mean one of those earworm songs that gets stuck in your head and drives you crazy. I mean something that clearly God wants you to hear, or see, or read…something He will continue to place in your path until you stop brushing it off as coincidence and realize maybe, just maybe, God is actually trying to tell you something?
In the last few months I have really felt God stirring my soul and confronting me with the truth that I tend to stay where it is safe, and let fear and uncertainty hold me back, rather than leaning on my faith in Him that He will carry me through. The truth that if I would stop worrying about myself and my own comfort so much, He could use me for really great and incredible things in His name. I want so badly to move beyond my fears and let Him lead me where He wants to use me.
And in comes this song I just can’t get away from. For the record, I really don’t listen to Christian radio and am largely out of the loop on what is popular in the Christian music scene. So it’s not like this is a song I can’t get away from because it’s played all the time on the stations I listen to all the time. This has been brought to me through random blog posts, comments in other blog posts, Bible studies, friends’ Facebook posts…all unrelated, and all this song. So I finally listened to it and there God was, telling me once again to let go of my fears and grab on to Him.
I’m certain I am not the only one who has listened to this song and made it his or her prayer. It’s a scary prayer to pray, because God is so good in taking you to those places you aren’t comfortable when you ask Him to. But I know my God is good. And it might be tough, and it might be scary, but He can use me in this place of discomfort…this place where I can’t rely on myself but instead must truly trust in Him. I just pray I will keep praying this, and not fall back into my meek and fear filled ways. Lord help me to be bold and be a vehicle for your glory to touch others.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
– “Oceans” by Hillsong –